HHmmmmm...

OK, a weird dichotomy has crept its way into my life the last couple of weeks. I am not a person who enjoys a crowd of people I don’t know. I don’t put myself into situations where I don’t know people very often and on the few occasions when it is a must-do I find a quiet corner and people watch almost the whole time only talking to those who might start up a conversation with me.

But aghast of all aghasts, my 20th high school reunion is quickly approaching in 2 weeks. My 1st gut call was to say no. Why would I put myself into a situation with people the vast majority of whom I have not heard from in over 15 years.

While my high school years were not without fun I spent them in the closet. A gay, fat teenage, geeky boy who had an OK time in high school. I had friends and hung out with several of them a lot so I was not lonely in any way.

So what is making second guess myself and wonder if I shouldn’t go to the reunion? I find myself wondering about people from high school and what they are up to these days. I have contacted a few people through e-mail whom I wondered the most about.

I will probably not end up going but am I missing out on seeing people who I haven’t seen in at least 20 years? I don’t know.

I’ll see how it goes over the next week.

3 weeks til Vegas….